Here's to our babies!

One of us has a 6 year old... one of us has a 1 year old- different ages, but share that same loss. It is always hard to celebrate memorial day when you have someone to actually visit, but can't really enjoy too much of the visit. It was bittersweet to go see blaze's headstone. Part of me was relieved that he finally had one, and the other part of me realized the reality of it, and brought back a whole load of emotions when we received malias. you always dream of buying your kids clothes, books, shoes, whatever makes them happy, but never did I think I would be purchasing a headstone at 20 years old for my baby- let alone 2 next to her so that we could all be together. This memorial day was differnt though- Instead of just visiting malia's- we went to blazes also and thought of where life has taken our family over these last few years. It has been a rollercoater ride sometimes, but a blessing most of the time- It is hard on somedays, but the reality of it gets a little easier as I talk about it to others. I wish sometimes death before the age of 90 wasn't an option or atleast every baby should get to live until they are grown, but since I don't make the rules I guess I should try to make the best out of the situation I am given. I love her as much today as always- and will continue to be grateful that a day is set aside to remember the loved ones we have lost- And especially be thankful that those loved ones are not alone-