Does it ever go away??

Ok so this cute nurse that I work with asked me yesterday about Malia, and asked what she could do for her sweet sister-in-law who unfortunately is pregnant with the same thing that went wrong with Malia, and asked what she could do- My heart just goes out to her- It is such a long, hard battle to fight to have a child that you know could or possibly is going to die. Malia had anancephaly- which I didn't know what it was until I have now taken some nursing classes, and realized from some examples that that is what she had. I know the doctors told me repeatedly, but I just didn't seem to care what it was called, I just heard that your baby will most likely die or atleast not live for long. My heart just hoped they were wrong and it would be in heavenly fathers hands to make that decision. Well they were right and God made the decision that was hard for us and best for her. So this post is for all those mommy's (and daddy's) that have to face death of a child, or have already. When nicole was asking about Malia- I was ok to talk about it, since is is 6 years later, but in those quiet moments I realize how much we cried, suffered, questioned everything from doctors to faith. So to this sweet mom who is dealing with this my heart does go out to you! Please know that what lies ahead will be hard whatever the outcome, but you are not alone- and you will someday look back and realize you did it, and you have such a strong heart that your not even probably aware of yet- I truely believe that our heavenly father gives those -who go through whatever trial they are dealt- a little stronger hearts to withstand the battles and struggles we are given. and especially those who have to see a child struggle or one who has to see a child die- I pray for those families often who have to struggle with health issues of a precious child- Who will never see there child run and play, or be able to do all the childlike things that they do, or to even have the chance to see their child out of an incubator- Please know that you are strong! you are amazing, and you can do it- I can only say that now looking back, but I am happy to be able to say that we have a sweet angel who is always with us, and especially in those queit moments.- Enjoy those moments!